唔係離開上海。搬扑啫。

一直唔想走，因為覺得呢度同朋友關係緊密啲，但係始終想同用一用個新買既地址。我會繼續留意大家既 Xanga =]

新的家 ： Far Away From Home ( http://chioka.in/ )



同埋呢，一直以來，下面條數字，其實係咁睇：

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16進步：
B5BA8B6359A241BC3B235AB2 + 705083841DB781BFC811ACB5 = 1260B0EE77759C37C03350767

哦，原來如此？

多謝大家一直以來睇我呢啲膠日誌！記住來睇下我生活近代史呀。

原文不再，重貼分享。


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忙碌導致棄書、廢餐、再添忘寢，
下場即便無知、積勞、繼而成疾。

得閒死唔得閒病，終於今日病一病。
不過都係要返工，未做完就想放假？

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時日遠飛，事隔一年，獨個兒遠渡上海，人生尤如重新開始，今年七月九日，是工作一周年紀念日，正好來個大反省，一直有些難以啓齒的說話，還是沒說，有點後悔，但現在還是想說，還有四年前時和離別的你們。

說真，有時我對人說人生總是太多灰暗不快事，還曾經狠狠的自暴自棄過一段日子，但想真點，其實滿是多快樂和難忘事。

那些小學的模糊白痴校車事、中學的讀書打機跳舞嘈交旅行、大學的多種瘋狂青春無聊放縱徹夜日子、網絡世界認識的各位朋友、引導我思想成長很多想法的同事、在我離開香港前才認識而帶我遊歷香港各地方的朋友、補償我大學沒有迎新的各位瘋月玩仔仔囡囡及斬月的各位朋友、在日本台灣各個地方之旅所認識及遇到的旅友、很多很多不能盡錄的朋友們，當然還有在我生命中出現重要的妳們，都給了我很多很多精彩的回憶。

這年內，我沒有跟其他人說我的過去多無聊多沒趣，反是多麼的驕傲地說過去的多姿多彩，不是給了我想重始的想法，反是強烈想重溫的感覺。往昔，我沒有好好跟大家道別，竟然還要像有型有款的悄悄離開、不作交待，實在大錯。所以現在想與可能失去了聯絡及在遠方的你們說聲：


肉麻都要說句：



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Justin 寫了關於他在氹仔看到的一篇葡人統治時基建的文章，我不懂陰謀論與否，本人想藉此分享少少對澳門的歷史的認知給大家，故在此略述，或許有誤，還請糾正。


碑文內的中英對照均欠缺主語，其實有三位不同的角色在後努力。

現今大家所認識所見到的氹仔，是一塊和路環島填海相連而成的島嶼，原本澳門不單止是兩個島嶼，嚴格來說是一大島及三小島。追溯源頭，其實於百多年前，氹仔是分成三小島，為雞頸山（雞頭山）、觀音岩及菩提山，但觀音岩和雞頸山之間其實只是一道淺水相隔，居民為了穿梭兩島而不用澗水而行，每每路經都投幾塊石頭，日積月累，泥灘變石灘，石灘變石路，漸漸將兩島相連。

氹仔分為兩個島，是 1919 年。

沙泥沖積，加上當時的居民修提，所以其實一半是屬於自然性質，另一半是再加上當時的居民和政府的功績。1927 年，經已連成一塊小島，但葡人的澳門填海計劃只是始於 1926 年，推論，其實三者都是有功勞，況且本來澳葡經濟起飛乃屬六七十年代後期的事，之前本地居民也是小鎮的動力，比方離島的消防隊等。

近年，又是另一番景象。

小時，澳門剩兩小島，為路氹連貫公路。
今天，澳門只有一島，中間是威尼斯人。


參考 <<澳門百科全書>> , <<澳門風物誌>>, Wikipedia。

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以往瀏覽器的第一頁為 about:blank，
最近改為 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random 。

試一下吧。

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週末，心情比較懶散，雲遊網絡四方，撞見網上黑洞，內藏不少心聲，我便頹廢寫了此頁：

我 . 你 .

你會想說甚麼？

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I remember I kept on agonizing over huge boredom when I was small. Being that, I forced myself to play with my sofa like a snail on a wall. When I reached university, life becomes busier but not too much, but you get some sense of running out of time when society approaches you. And thus I reject activities that waste time ( in my sense ). Now at such age being pushed to the society, time become much more scarce than ever before. The old idiom "Time is money" struck even harder than I can imagine. An excuse of busy for me and for others drove a lot of low priority activities away. I felt I am saving time.

Have you ever wished a day is more than twenty-four hours? I did. I am a person very mean with time. Time sometimes make a day longer for me, and brought to me a day seemingly with more than twenty-four hours.

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It looks good to have more time, but I guess prisoners or whoever is suffering would cast their vote against me. Then, when is a longer day good? It is good if it is effectively used. Otherwise, the extra time would either be suffering or you will not be doing something you do not like. Take sports, many people, including me, argue that there is not enough time for sports : too busy for that. However, the fact is even if there are a month there would not be time for sports either, you will probably use that time do something you like.

Well, it doesn't look too bad considering time is used to do what one likes. But then, that is only based on your assumption you know what to pick. Sometimes work would be relieved from me, and a block of time goes free and enlengthens my day. Sadly, a lot of the time these rare occurrences lead to further procrastinations and ineffective time use, and for programmers they are likely to bury themselves into work that they thought they must complete. I am a programmer, and I was one of them. I know it. I think this works similarly for my friends who work in Big Four in Hong Kong, and I heard too many horrifying work experiences.

Ironically, when work forces me to stay in office, I can still often end the day with the same workdone as expected, because things are still planned and executed. I might not be able to complete it, but I probably would have done more than even having a whole day. Efficiency here. As most of us have noticed, you will never begin work until the last moment. In fact, efficiency increases exponentially towards the deadline. There is no quality guarantee, but you know it can be done at the least. The trick is to pick the right time to start working so you can complete it with most efficiency. So, attitude towards time matters than just only time itself.

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As I ponder deeper, a longer day does not always mean more workdone, but more procrastination. Procrastination is good sometimes, and is necessary to relax yourself sometimes. It is also a tool to boost your morale should you go stuck in your mind. I procrastinate a lot, to walk around in my office and in Shanghai elsewhere. It builds up the guilt in you to use time more efficiently and to introduce thoughts. However, procrastination is still very dangerous in nature, as it can bring you even more procrastination. It is an endless loop that sometimes you will realize it only after days or weeks, or even months, or worse, years.

A longer day. It is possible to produce that illusion - illusion but very realistic to one's brain that it is almost real. A twenty-four hour day is more effective than a wrong attitude on a forty-eight hours day, just think about the weekend. Whether the trick can play positive effects or not, depends on oneself.

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「部電腦呢，越用越慢！搞邊科？」

最主要是四種：
１．惡意程式
２．硬碟資料太散太亂
３．太多程式同時運行
４．你的電腦硬件太慢

不談１。３，４都是買新的電腦的。談２，這是有錢都難解決又較鮮為人知的問題，究竟是甚麼問題？試想想下述情況：

我們現在又要再光顧那笨蛋圖書館，今次他又是有怪癖，我們給他一系列要找的書，他就一定要順序找出來。例如我們要找 『追渣沽 1』　和　『追渣沽 2』　期，他如果先找到 『追渣沽 2』，他是不會理會也不會記得，直至他找到『追渣沽 1』才會想起要找『追渣沽 2』，而每次他都是由剛剛找到的地方開始下一次的搜尋（即如順序擺放書本，他會很快找到下一本）。可惜，他只能同時拿一本書。

好了，他是笨，沒法子。明白了這個，我要借書了。

他去書架找 『追渣沽 1』，找到了，拿過來給我。他又很快發現 『追渣沽 ２』在 『追渣沽 1』 旁邊，他就很開心又花了六分鐘把本書逞上。我只等了十二分鐘。看完後我把書歸還圖書館。

服務很快，就如新的硬碟一樣。

後來，就如電腦用了數個月會變慢，我相隔了數個月去借圖書館重溫『追渣沽 1』和『追渣沽 2』，以及新收錄的書本 『追渣沽 3』、『追渣沽 4』和『追渣沽 5』。

「喂！搞錯，做咩搵 5 本書要一個鐘咁耐？！」
「唔好意思呀，我去搵啲書嗰陣，買 『追渣沽 3』 『追渣沽 4』 同 『追渣沽 5』 時，先發現 『追渣沽 2』 隔離無位放，所以咪求其放在其他位置，所以浪費了很多時間！我要續本續本搵喎！」

原來他擺放書本是亂放的，不是順序放，所以就這麼慢！

「你唔識排順啲書架？咁唔係就快啲囉下次！」
「係喎！你叫到，我家陣就排序先！」

蠢蛋！電腦硬碟情況相約，為甚麼越用越慢，正是因為硬碟上的影片被切割成 4000 多份時，還要亂放，所以才會出現這麼慢。試想像當 4000 本書亂放，會變成以下對話：

「喂！搞錯，做咩搵 4000 本書要 八百幾個鐘 ．．．　成個月咁耐？！」
「大佬！ 4000 本書亂放，要順序搵出來，仲要一次一本，你又可以搵得幾快呀？！」

又怎能怪他？

在 Windows 世界裡頭，這問題叫 fragmentation ； 而排序則等如是 defragmentation（對！就是附屬應用程式－＞系統工具－＞硬碟重組。）。

以上情況只是約略的比喻，現實是有出入的，但如果能大概這樣理解，已經比之前知道多很多了！

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媽咪說道：「努力讀書，努力工作，唔係就好似嗰個叔叔咁，成世執垃圾！你想唔想呀？」
小孩回應：「唔想！」

以前媽咪跟我說過，而我很怕臭的，當然不想當撿垃圾，所以我小時候就讀書很努力。道破這些時，我是單靠自身經歷和思考的。

我相信努力是重要的，亦不想否定，我亦曾說過，Randy Pausch 亦說過，努力的重要性，而在很多成功人仕中的事例中，「努力」都肯定功不可沒，甚少是只存「僥倖」，但似乎對於很多小孩子（或成年人）來說，努力似乎是鯨吞知識、愚公移山、努力不懈和沒有不可能的事情等等。我不想在此玩文字獄，但一定要談愚公移山。愚公移山，是唯一個上列會殃及池魚的劣想法，那九十餘歲的老不死自己笨就算了，移一座山，甚無意思，還要子子孫孫甚至鄰家小孩都給一起「老點」了！以我當年的智商，都可以批出其荒謬，把人教導成牛隻一樣。牛隻大後怎樣？給人宰。做牛？我才不跟。

慢熟的我，在成長過程中，漸漸得知那些盲目努力是對之餘，更明白到聰明地去努力，是更對的一件事情。舉一例來說清楚點：當我可以借他人之力去達到一樣事情，既沒有自己親自去學或做的需要，借他人之力，節省自己時間，我亦明白「學海無涯，實學唔晒。」（留意，「唯勤是岸」又是「老點」人的。）這條道理，所以我就不想浪費時間，因為我根本沒有多餘時間給浪費。謹記，對自己沒有意思的，對他人不一定，所以善用資源很重要。

聽明人都是把浪費時間的外判給人，用錢買他人的時間去幫自己去成事（賺錢），而不是用自己時間沒有效率去成事（賺錢）。這都又是圍繞著善用資源的話題，你有聽過多少個不善用資源而更是成功的例子嗎？

盲目努力亦有其好處，亦因為是這樣，我才會努力不懈習得不少技能及經驗，尤其是小孩時沒有權選擇學甚麼時，又或是對著很困難令人苦惱的課題時，這心態讓我至少我嘗試過努力過，最後以比人多倍的努力獲得更少的收獲，但是收獲是存在的。既是如此，在運氣用不著的地方，如果想比他人出色，相信單憑努力就能如願以償，真是可行？

當然，如果我一開始不相信努力是很重要的一環，我想我會比現在更技窮，但若是受騙太久，卻會根深柢固，愚笨一段光陰，青春黃金時間，一去不復返。我現在是巧妙地選擇，但仍時間不足。我是自閉小孩子，沒有多跟大人談話，沒有人為我拆解迷局，或許父母已經忘記了。如果我日後成人父，我應該何時點破迷局？

而你，明日為人父母，又會如何教授孩子努力的道理？

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(courtesy of qinsancmy)

May eleventh. Almost half of 2008, and nearly a year in Shanghai for me, and then a year in one of my dreamed company.

Last night, I read something, not for me, but I drew my own meanings and aroused some thoughts.

The night before, a friend wrote : Dashing ahead comes at the price of oblivion.
Simple and plain, yet resounding and stunning. Like a bolt in the blue, yet I've seen bolts once in a while. At the price of oblivion, I tried to recall what was happening and what I have gained.

I recount to verify.

Recount. Friday : A day work with boredom and a pair of green shoes with glee.
Recount again. Thursday : A busy day work to complete some plans.
Recount again. Wednesday : I was frantically installing the same software like twenty times, and looking for a button that doesn't exist.
Recount again. Tuesday : That's Wednesday.
Recount again. Monday : Start of a fiendish week, and previously a cursed month.

Last week? Last month? I probably have lost trace of them, only curses left, as if I have wasted them. It is hard to comment, but I am wary, and well aware of these blurred memories which will make up the days that one would describe as empty and hollow. I ponder again : "When was the last period of days you recount your days vividly and unforgettable?"

That was the thing that struck me : "Not really, I don't recall anything concrete at least in the last year." Now this answer is certainly something I don't want, you don't want. But certainly the answer was something probably some of us have already succumbed to. Ahhh, and then you act as if you are the sobriety and then the drunken bump sneers and speaks : "Life's like that, I have had my youth, and I have had been you, and have dreamed of the wondrous future it had to be. But you got a life to live, and that means you have to work for food and so. Guess what? I see your lips moving but just speechless to refute, but then your claims are just glorified scripts, a ha! So, save for yourself, unless you got some really inspiring tale to tell kiddo! Get on with your nine and five!"

I have no tale to tell yet, but what's in me is not embers, and not like smouldering. No, I am not trying to be glorified or what, but I am just reflecting.

Oh, by the way, it is nine and nine.

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